Second Audition Results

So, I still don't have all the parts cast, though I do have most. I still don't have my lead, though, nor my favorite G-Man. Both are difficult parts. So, I am going to have to do another audition.

It's frustrating. You know, you hear all the time about how hard it is for actors, but so far I have not seen a whole lot of get up and go. The few people I have cast have it, but it seems to me that if something really is your dream, you kinda have to work at it. Hell, making a movie isn't even my dream, it's just something I thought would be fun to do.

For the most part, it has been, but it is still frustrating. I still haven't even gotten over the shock of how far I have gotten on this. Hell, I even got funding today. Not much, just $500, but that will buy food and water during shooting, maybe even a couple of costumes.

I believe I am meeting with my fight choreographer this Wednesday as well as my programmer. This Thursday I am meeting with the owner of a production company to talk about a possible partnership.

It's still odd to day that I am doing any of these things. I hope that feeling never goes away. I hope I am never comfortable calling the shots, or leading people, or making deals. I hope it always makes me feel like someone else should be doing this, that I am doing it just because there is no one else around to do it for me. I just don't want it to be that this is what I do.

And I don't know why I feel that way.

Oh well...

James